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Monday, January 22, 2018

Blogging fear

A little over a year ago I had one of those New years goals and it was to update our blog more often. It's really one of those things that I desire to do. Not because I want you all to read it and to know what is going on in our life. It's more because I have an awful memory and I want our little stories and snippets of our life documented for me and for my family. I want to be able to look back on where we have come from and where we have been. I want to be reminded of the growth that took place, prayers answered, and joys celebrated. I want to take the time to step away from this life that seems to be moving so fast to reflect on all that God provides day in and day out. I am not talking about his financial provision although that is also important.  I'm talking about ALL that HE provides. His beauty, His moments, His work, His joy..and the list goes on.

I hesitated though,  mostly because I am not this beautiful writer, and in all honesty it is my weakest subject. I don't want others to come on the blog and see all the mistakes I have made in my grammar, spelling, sentence structure. Or see that on most days I am scatter brained.  Maybe I was caught in a comparison trap. I have many friends who do this whole blogging thing so very well! Some who even get paid to do it! This has been the reason I haven't updated. I started to feel like it was chore to make it "just right".

As, I reflected on this past year I was saddened that I chose to give into my fear and not blog about it. It was a such a big year for my family and I wish I documented some of those moments when they were fresh.  So as I reflect I learned to not carry the burden of what wasn't done,  but to move forward with clarity and purpose. Got created me just how I am with the gifts he has given me for a purpose. Maybe writing isn't one of them and I am OK with that. I know that he has gifted me in so many other areas that I am oh so grateful for!  It is my prayer that this blog would one day be a gift to our kids as they look back on our days and they are able to read and be reminded of how God shows up in every moment as we continue to walk forward in faith in him. It is my prayer that it would be a gift to Joshua and I as we are reminded of how the Lord has alway been there and will always be! Who knows it may also be a gift to you all. If you could get past the grammar mistakes and see our heart and His heart in all of this.

I was recently told by someone that my instagram account reflects an amazing life, one that doesn't have any struggle. Ugh I guess social media can sometimes make peoples life seem that way. No one really wants to hang their dirty laundry out. We post about the beautiful glorious things and not the messy dirty things. Please know that in our home we have it all. On some days from one minute to the next it changes. There is much Joy as we take our life a moment by moment, day by day. At the same time there is sin and its ugly, and we get caught up in it. We are continuously praying that Satan would get behind us and that the Holy spirit would reign in our home. I will do my best to make this blog as authentic as possible. It's not alway roses, but when it is those days are glorious. We also see His glory it those days when it's not, as He lifts us up out of the dirt and give our feet a firm place to stand and wraps His arms around us and says.. I got this! I am so grateful for our God who does just that.

 This is a picture of our treasures, they are growing so very fast but they still love to feed the ducks every time we go to the library, and I love that we have the space and time in our day to do so! God is so good! 

Joshua and I had the privilege of leading at youth winter camp last weekend, serving together has been one of those things that we have loved to do since the beginning of our relationship! It sure does bless us! 

Christmas Greetings 2017 -posted late

Merry Christmas 2017

      Merry Christmas from Colorado, where it looks like its actually going to be a white Christmas this year!  This was our first full year out here and it was a great year for our family. It was also a year full of growth, learning, dedication, and some firsts. This year we established new traditions, and continued some old ones. It is such a gift to think and look back on our year and see all that the Lord has done in our lives.  He continues to show his faithfulness through out our lives in so many amazing ways.
     
        This has been our first full year as a home-schooling family and it has been such a blessing.  Julie is an amazing teacher and I know being able to teach our kiddos this year has been rough at some points, but has also brought her much joy. She enjoys being able to get creative with her teaching, and loves being able to teach to the kid’s different learning styles, and needs, while still providing them the time to just be kids and enjoy the wonder and discovery in God’s creation.  The kids have been able to have so many great experiences through field trips, and extra curricular activities through homeschool.  We have also been blessed with the opportunity to have equestrian P.E. this school year! This has been a highlight for all the kids! We surprised the kids with their first school-focused vacation this year! We took them to South Dakota! They got to learn about and experience Badlands National Park, Mt. Rushmore, Crazy Horse, and Custer State Park. It was an incredible trip of much learning! This is one of the many advantages of homeschooling. So far this homeschool journey has been a good fit for us. Most importantly, Julie loves that she can speak truth into the kiddos life all day long, and point them to Gods word. She definitely has her plate full when it comes to teaching. With four kids in four different grades, teaching can be tricky, but Julie looks to the Lord for her strength and lets Him lead.
     
      Julie was also given the opportunity to attend a women’s retreat this past year, and is now really feeling like She has a community around her.  When we moved out here, Julie left some amazing friends, which has been hard for her.  God knows what we need and He has provided some great women in Julie’s life that walk along side her and lift her up.
     
      Joshua Wayne is officially in middle school (crazy!) this year and is turning into a mature, godly young man. Joshua’s highlight each week is attending youth group! He also enjoys playing the guitar and he continues to excel in sports.  He returned back to Little League this year and made it to the all-star team, which was a huge blessing for him!  Another area he did great in this year was in 4-H.  We look at 4-H as an extension of the kid’s homeschool; it is a very educational program that also teaches great character development. Joshua truly enjoys all that he is learning in 4H. This past year he raised and showed his Boer goat “Grace” at the county fair. He made it to champion drive in the market category and Grand Champion in showmanship, which then allowed him to move onto the Round Robin category where he got to show other animals including a horse, a steer, pig, and a few others.  This was a great learning experience for him and he got second place. He also won second place in archery with a compound bow and made it to the El Paso County team and competed at the state fair.

      Janna Rose had an exciting year as well.  She is in the fourth grade and has really started to show a joy for learning across all subjects! Back in August, Janna publically professed her faith and chose to be baptized at our church! This was a huge step in Janna’s faith walk, one that she did not take lightly as she had been giving much thought to this decision for a couple of years. There is nothing that can make Julie and I more proud than know that our children have decided, on their own, to follow Christ and live their life for Him!  This past year Janna also really found a love for Softball. She had a great coach who first invested in building the girls character, sportsmanship, and then skill into the girls and because of this, Janna became a better all around player. She also learned a lot in 4-H.  Janna won Champion for Cake Decorating, her Quilting Project and in the Fashion review, and first place for her Clothing Construction project.  Janna continues to love to sing and play the piano. She was blessed with the opportunity to close her Christmas Piano recital by playing silent night with the audience accompanying her by singing.

      Jadyn Elizabeth has grown up so much this year.  She will always be my “tiny” one, but she is changing so much!  Now in the second grade, Jadyn loves to read and do math (she doesn’t get that from me!). She also loves to be creative, and says she wants to be an artist when she grows up. Jadyn loves to be social and meet new people, she has enjoyed making new friends both at church and through the homeschool program.  Jadyn also played sports this year.  With her being two grades below Janna, she was supposed to play with younger girls but we decided to play her up and she did great!  Being the youngest and smallest one on the team did not stop her from going out there, playing with all her heart, and do amazing! She has learned so much from her older siblings and wants to do everything just like them, including 4-H.  Jadyn was too young to participate this year, but is now old enough to.  She is real excited to get started on her projects, including goats, which I know she will do great in! Jadyn also continues to play piano, and she is beginning to enjoy it more as she advances! She currently loves to play worship songs on the piano. The greatest news about Jadyn this year is that she made the decision to follow Jesus all the days of her life, and committed to serving and loving Him!

      Jeremiah Ray, mommy’s “lil lad” is not so little anymore.  He is now in kindergarten and loves to read, and discover new things and ideas.   He has also been enjoying sports this year and cant wait to play flag football now that he’s old enough.  Jeremiah joined his sisters in piano this year and he too enjoys it! They just had their winter recital and Jeremiah went up with confidence and played like a big boy.   It is such a joy to watch him grow into a little man and navigate his way through different emotions as a six year old.  Like his older siblings, he loves to play outside on the farm. He enjoys riding his bike, climbing trees, treasure hunting and lending a hand building a fort the four of them have been putting together. Jeremiah is too young for 4H, but him and Jadyn were given the opportunity to show Joshua’s goat in the peewee division at the county fair! Jeremiah very much looks up to his big brother, and he loves to learn from him.   This was the first year that Jeremiah experienced being a “big brother” himself, he took this job seriously and he was amazing!

      In March of this past year our family started a journey of fostering kiddos that had been on all of our hearts for many years. We felt that God was calling our family to love on little ones that needed a place to feel safe and loved. We knew this was a big step of faith, and that we couldn’t have done it on our own. Through our church we have been blessed with an amazing community and support system around us to walk through this with us. We were honored to be given the opportunity to love on two different sets of siblings as our own this year. As you can see we included them all on our Christmas card, as they were a huge part of our family and our life! We were first placed with a sibling group of three little ones 2.5, 1.5, and 9 months old! They were apart of our family for two months. That time was both challenging and rewarding, but honestly it was transforming for us as we saw Gods strength shine through when we as parents didn’t have any more strength. Also, we saw God work in our kiddos lives, as they loved these little ones so well! It is such a gift to see our kiddos desire and enjoy serving the Lord by showing His love.  Next, we were given the opportunity to care for two brothers 2, and 4 years old. They were part of our family for 6 months! They fit right in, enjoyed life and were such a blessing and a joy to have. Our kiddos had such a loving bond with all the kiddos who joined our family. All of these sweet kiddos went back to their family, which was sad for us, but we also know that God has a plan for them and we were blessed to be a part of it and to be able to show His love to each and every one of them. Our lives are forever changed by their lives. We don’t currently have any additional kiddos in our family, but we are ready and willing when there is a need. The Lord knows what’s to come.
     
      A few years ago Julie and I had planned to go to Kauai for our anniversary. The trip was put on hold due to my back injury, but this year we were able to reschedule to trip, and not only that but our close friends Melissa and Shaheen were able to join us as they also celebrated their anniversary.  We had the most wonderful time! It was truly an amazing trip, filled with some rest, but mostly great adventure and discovery full of new experiences, much laughter and a lot of fun! Sometimes I look back on that time and can’t even believe it happened; it was sort of like a dream! While we were enjoying the island the kids were enjoying being at the Ranch camp with Julie’s Mom. It was truly an incredible week for all of us, and we feel blessed to have had the opportunity.

      We LOVE having houseguests and we were incredibly blessed to have so many this year! Some of our most favorite memories from our year were just living life with family and friends that we love here on our farm.  Some of the highlights included; a couple quick visits from two of Julie’s uncles, hiking through Castlewood Canyon state park with Julie’s Dad, Memorial Day weekend with my Grandma, porch conversations with our friend Benny, introducing our animals to Benny’s little girls, bike riding, game playing, and wagon riding with the Jahangards, card playing, quad riding, and playing with the animals with Julie’s Grandma, and painting, baking, hamocking and bike riding with Julie’s Mom. At one point this year we had 3 families -6 adults and 15 kiddos sleeping under our roof!  These moments of “living life together” were filled with much joy and laughter and they were truly a gift that we cherished!
     
I have continued to enjoy my job, home projects, our family time, and time out doors.  This year I was given the opportunity to lead and re-launch the youth ministry at church. Julie serves along side me, and we both very much enjoy ministering and investing in the lives of the youth at our church! It is such a blessing!  I have also had the honor of filling the pulpit twice this year for our pastor.  It was a blessing and honor to be asked to share what God has been putting on my heart.  The first time I preached on community and this past Sunday I preached on the importance of margin.  One of the reasons I focused on this was making sure we have time to work on our relationship with Jesus.  With this being the season of Advent, we need to take some time and remember what we are celebrating.  We can easily overwhelm ourselves with things that we think we “need” to do, and lose focus on what we really need to do.  There are plenty of important things in our life, but none as important as your relationship with Jesus.  Take some time and have a conversation with him!
We pray that God would bless you and reveal himself to you in new ways this Christmas Season and upcoming year!
Have a Merry Christmas!
Love, The Taflinger’ s
Joshua, Julie, Joshua Wayne (11), Janna Rose (9), Jadyn Elizabeth (8), and Jeremiah Ray (6)